Cranberries: No Need to Argue

There's no need to argue anymore.
I gave all I could, but it left me so sore.
And the thing that makes me mad,
Is the one thing that I had,

I knew, I knew,
I'd lose you.
You'll always be special to me,
Special to me, to me.

And I remember all the things we once shared,
Watching T.V. movies on the living room armchair.
But they say it will work out fine.
Was it all a waste of time.

'Cause I knew, I knew,
I'd lose you.
You'll always be special to me,
Special to me, to me.

Will I forget in time, ah,
You said I was on your mind?
There's no need to argue,
No need to argue anymore.
There's no need to argue anymore.

Ouuu, ouuu, ouuuu...
Special.

More artwork

From Yokes...
http://artpad.art.com/?j69e7q2s2jo - practice

From yours truly...
http://artpad.art.com/?j69f57fotso - same hole

3rd Day in...

So what have I achieved so far during the mid-term break...

1. Tire my ass off during the cyclohunt thingy
2. Went shopping yesterday for my concert attire
3. Did past year stats (can't complete cos N distri not fully covered)
4. Doze off while reading the gigantic Bio book
5. Read till gymnosperms (still left with angiosperms.. and only 1 st round)
6. Read Biophysical Env of S'pore (while on bus and train rides)
7. Helped with a bit of spring cleaning at home
8. Picked up chem just to put it back down again
9. Neglecting physio (cos the CA's over...yay!)
10. Complaining how hungry I am (only day 4, still not use to it)

Well, there's sectionals today and before that, another gym session. Ha.. where do I find the energy to do these things.

Therapeutic shopping

I got my white top.

I got my black bottom.

Well, now all I need is some confidence.

Please don't let me go through this again..

I simply don't have the energy anymore.

You just have to tell me where I stand..

you don't have to show me..

I trusted you as a friend not to put me in awkward situations.

And I came along trying to have fun. When he told me there's 6, I know that I was not going to enjoy myself... 6 was too much. I struggle even when I'm around large groups of people that I know. Now you put me with 6 strangers, of course I won't enjoy myself.

Like one of them said, it was an OG outing. I certainly don't belong. I felt like I live in China for goodness sake. There was nothing that I understood, nothing that I was involved in and nothing that I learnt. I ended up fiddling with my phone or staring into empty space while they had fun.

And I tried to at least talk to some of them, but I ended up getting the I'm-so-sorry-that-you're-not-enjoying-yourself look. Well, I don't need it! I can feel sorry for myself if I wanted!

But I'm glad he enjoyed himself cycling with his OG mates. Ha... like what someone said, 'it's not how long you know the person, it's how well you know'. My my, I guess I lost out on both then.

And I thought that I will make new friends and have fun. Boy, am I sooooo wrong!

I guess I trusted you too much

Brighten up your day!

With permission from Yokes...

http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?j61f7binaig
-Cheerleader

http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?j61dg1sc3x4
-Ladybug

http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?j61eq5al2lg
-Art Attack?


Damn cute!


and here's mine...
http://artpad.art.com/?j61ghn1l5r8s

Walk through evolution... and more

Practical session today was like a walk through the evolution of plants... from the bryophytes to the ferns to the gymnosperms and to the angiosperms.

From the sporangium and peristomes of the bryophytes, the sorus and false insidium of the ferns, the megastrobullus of the pines, the double fertilisation in angiosperms, it was more of an information overload during the 3+ hour stint.

I was sort of lost at the gates of ferns and thereafter. I was confusing the sporophyte phase with the gametophyte phase, the sexual body with the asexual body, the pericarp with the mesocarp. Again, information overload.

But somehow learning through hands-on makes learning interesting (if it wasn't in the first place). Touching the trichomes during the Kent Ridge walk, tasting the Belinjau at the fern allies station, smelling the puke-inducing megastrobullus really made me appreciate the lessons better.

And it was kinda freaky when the TA memorised our names and faces... Oooo... no more slacking for BioD from now on...

Not to mention getting a chance to see plants that I've never ever seen before.

At least the girls in my group are hip and cool. Not to mention kind too... Haha... well, the holidays are offically in and fasting begins on Sunday. What a double whammy right?

Reality check 1: Be nice to people and people MAY be nice to you
Reality check 2: Studies is MY responsibility, not my tutor's
Reality check 3: Help each other out but DON'T expect them to do the same

Life's about to get worse, time's about to get shorter and the exams are definitely nearer...

Trust me....

soon enough we're gonna meet up because we have to and not because we want to.

soon enough we'll be cooking up excuses to save time.

soon enough we're gonna realise that though we're near, we're miles apart.

soon enough you'll fade me in the background.

soon enough you'll forget that I'm your friend.

Epiphany

'do you want to end it?'

It didn't struck me as a question at first. The shock was too great for me to digest those words. Though this happened a few months back, I could still feel the ripple now.

I admit that I'm observant to traits others are unaware of. People's emotion and body language are easily read by me. And occassionally I could even hitch a ride on their train of thoughts. But at the same time I don't want to intrude; to dwell on every detail. I want people to tell me, to let me know that I'm trusted. That's why at times I choose to be the quiet one; I can probe but I'd rather be let in.

Now I believe I'm faced with the same question, but now I'm asking myself. Do I want to end it?

It's a different feeling. Reflection time for me is always done in solitude; I will shut everything out. But this time I feel like a personal reflection isn't adequate. I need people to tell me where I'm going wrong, what my mistakes are.

Amorphophallus titanum

The world largest inflorescence.... In the lecture notes, it's even bigger... bigger and taller than a person... Freaky...

Peronal DNA

Considerate Leader

Take and compare here...
http://personaldna.com/psychyou-psychme.php?for=1771fdf246b2

Four second frenzy

http://www.heavygames.com/foursecondfrenzy/showgame.asp

Cool games... try it out

Life just isn't - Author unknown

A favourite of mine. Read it from Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul years back. From then on, I've been living on it...

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.

Why do these tears taste the same?

Friend?

Sometimes I just don't understand the people around me, even though I try so hard to. To change my frequency to match theirs, to change my tone to make myself heard, to bring myself down low so that I could bring them back up, to lend out may hand so that they can take it, to just be a friend.

But I find it harder and harder everytime I see them, every meeting became a drag when it's just school, school, school. When it's about the work piling up, when it's about the lagging in studies, when it's just about school.

But I am ready. Ready for the changes I'm about to see in my friends. Friends who won't have time to just to be a friend.

Do I consider myself slacking? Maybe... or it's just that my work extends to more than just school. I have a huge responsibility piled on my shoulders. Imagine my mother working just to provide transportation money for me. Imagine my aunt and grandma helping my mum with my allowances for school. Imagine me giving tuition just so I could pay for my bills.

Some people just don't know how to be grateful... some people just don't understand...

ANTM cycle 6: Nnenna

As I walked along this dark side of the path,
I glanced upon the people across,
felt like I've been a victim of theft,
robbed of all that I could have lost.

My tears concealed in the dark,
my every step weighing me down.
Why can't my eyes steer me from that park,
that paradise, that knows no frowns.

The Sunken Village played in the background.
Hearing both joy and pain in unison,
Maybe I'll stay here till I'm found,
and forever looking across from this personal prison.

wo ai egg

Hmmm... I feel like I'm being very cynical lately, criticising and yapping my heads off. Just last week I was telling Yat about my identity crisis I had in the past. Somehow I feel myself attracted to the feeling of hopelessness again, to see the hand that will pull me back up again.

It's kinda stupid when I think about it.

Well, dwelling is useless. Brooding is worse... so I think I'll stop now...

I'll just fade in someone else's shadow...