I trusted you as a friend not to put me in awkward situations.

And I came along trying to have fun. When he told me there's 6, I know that I was not going to enjoy myself... 6 was too much. I struggle even when I'm around large groups of people that I know. Now you put me with 6 strangers, of course I won't enjoy myself.

Like one of them said, it was an OG outing. I certainly don't belong. I felt like I live in China for goodness sake. There was nothing that I understood, nothing that I was involved in and nothing that I learnt. I ended up fiddling with my phone or staring into empty space while they had fun.

And I tried to at least talk to some of them, but I ended up getting the I'm-so-sorry-that-you're-not-enjoying-yourself look. Well, I don't need it! I can feel sorry for myself if I wanted!

But I'm glad he enjoyed himself cycling with his OG mates. Ha... like what someone said, 'it's not how long you know the person, it's how well you know'. My my, I guess I lost out on both then.

And I thought that I will make new friends and have fun. Boy, am I sooooo wrong!

I guess I trusted you too much