Epiphany

'do you want to end it?'

It didn't struck me as a question at first. The shock was too great for me to digest those words. Though this happened a few months back, I could still feel the ripple now.

I admit that I'm observant to traits others are unaware of. People's emotion and body language are easily read by me. And occassionally I could even hitch a ride on their train of thoughts. But at the same time I don't want to intrude; to dwell on every detail. I want people to tell me, to let me know that I'm trusted. That's why at times I choose to be the quiet one; I can probe but I'd rather be let in.

Now I believe I'm faced with the same question, but now I'm asking myself. Do I want to end it?

It's a different feeling. Reflection time for me is always done in solitude; I will shut everything out. But this time I feel like a personal reflection isn't adequate. I need people to tell me where I'm going wrong, what my mistakes are.