Losing life

See who escaped the zoo

Well, the long awaited chem test is finally over... but it was funny though because the whole lecture was practically discussing the test openly since there wasn't enough TAs to go around the whole LT. Nonetheless, it was still hard.. imagine having to confine your answer to the pathetic box. Haha.. we'll see how everyone fare..

So now..have SSA essay due tomorrow, SSA field report due next tues, chem lab report due next tues, BioD test next wed and Physio test next fri.. An exciting week awaits..

And for the record.. I haven't watch a movie for nearly 2 months now.. OMG, what am I becoming?

Hair experiment

Somehow this past week my hair has been getting alot of attention..

and yup..

I dyed it..

I'm gonna keep it long..

Well, it's an experiment.. I'll see how it goes

Lemme dig: Raya Pics

asking forgiveness from my grandma..
Aunts...
Made by my uncle...nice huh?...
forgiving session...

a giant sucker fish...reared by my cuz...bigger than my head...freaky

Now.. gotta mug mug mug... major chem test... i think i'll leave school at 830 tonight... haiz

Syawal's here...

Hearing the takbir...

thinking the absence of my grandfather,

thinking about my family,

thinking about the millions of Muslims celebrating Aidil Fitri,

thinking about God,

brought tears to my eyes.

Guess some things never change.

As I lay forth my ten fingers,
I seek forgiveness from the people,
whom I may have done wrong.
Hoping that I may be forgiven.

3 hours...

of spring cleaning..



Finally I got a neat room again.

Okokmaybe not this..must prepare for test in a week..

BioD + Physio = FUN

Had fieldtrip no.2 just now to Cnagi Beach. Though it was raining when we set foot on the beach, the rain quickly dissipated soon enough.

Comb jellies, sea horse, crabs, barnacles, pipefish, catfich, hermit crabs, prawns, sea cucumbers, sea anemonies, casuarina, sea morning glory, jelly fish,

Till now, we only saw pictures of these animals but to actually touch them, it felt good.

And people say there's nothing to see in Singapore.

***

What do people normally do during lectures?

Talk, eat, sleep, take down notes, play games...

But for my physio, the lessons are both engaging and interesting. Initially today nobody asked questions but after a while, hands started shooting up. Questions after questions from inquisitive mind, I leanred more during the lecture than I would have if I just sat and copy down notes.

After a few lides or so he would stop and ask us whether we had any questions or not and would be disappointed if there wasn't any.

'to question is to learn'... a good attitude to live by.

And during his lecture, there's usually some unlearning and relearning to be done. Take today for example, we relearned the meaning of diffusion...

And he started by asking..

'if you have an ice cream with 2 diiferent colours at each end, will diffusion take place, even though there is a concentration gradient?'

Guess school's just about to get interesting..

Survey

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QOqXlbWf9Io

Watch it for a good laugh..

Lost thread

Sometimes when I write I take extra caution to make sure that I don't offend anybody. But now I realise why should I?

If you chose to be offended by my snarls, my sarcasm or my crude remarks, is it my fault?

I was waiting for this thought to surface for a very long time because it was preventing me from doing justice to myself.

Right now I feel the wheel turning on me again. What happened before is now happening again. But mind you, I've taken precautions this time, not wanting to thread on dangerous grounds again knowing that I will not burn the bridges behind me.

When people look at me, just what do they see?
First impressions always say that I'm dao.
Do I deny that?
Not at all.

Maybe it's the increasing complexity of my life that had me worrying and sulking for so long. I had people come to me asking why I looked so glum and sad. To them I looked sad, to me I'm tired of smiling - tired of being a nice guy. At times it just doesn't pay.

During the days just before and after ORD, I mentioned about how things will change, how things will undergo major changes. I guess now I'm seeing it happening. I see some of my so called 'close friends' disappearing, I see how I'm struggling to keep friends as friends. I see how older friends re-surface as soon as new friends leave. I guess it's nature's balance.

As people drift further apart, it's unlikely that there'll be any shared thread.

As always after I write a damn depressing entry like this, I'll have a barrage of response from people telling me that it's ok, telling me that I'm not alone, telling me that I think to much. But then this same people will disappear as soon as the next bright entry comes out. I just couldn't figure all these people out.

I guess I'm never destined to have good friends. I lost best friends, I lost good friends. Maybe I'm just the kind of person to just have friends. To treat everyone equally. Because I expected reciprocation that I never got, because I trusted people who seemed trustworthy.

Maybe it's the damn rat race society that I'm living in, where a person feeds on another person's weakness. Just when do we have the time to stop and smell the roses?

I always feel bad after writing things without sorting them through. But this time it felt right. Right, to let myself out once in a while.

I guess I still have much to write but just couldn't find the right words...

Mesra hanya sementara.

Senyuman menjadi ingatan.

ST1232

X= marks obtained for the mid term test

E(X)=30

We'll see how accurate his estimation is...

Somehow I'm still not done with my formula sheet...

Make it work!

I can't believe only at the age of 21 did I managed to visit a mangrove system.
Today's trip was a treat for all the senses. Snapped tonnes of pics for the field report. Saw my first mudskipper, fiddler crab and horseshoe crab.

A fiddler crab at the center..quite small in the pic

2 horseshoe crabs mating (i think) just below the foliage

A big mudskipper...

Well, have to start on the field report soon. I should've S/Ued the module. But what the heck.. I'll make it work!

While I was studying my chem...

flipping notes, writing formulas

I had my radio on...

songs in the distant, dedications

I lost track of time...

then I heard Vitamin C's Graduation. Ya.. I know it's an old song and all but the song somehow fitted the mood I was in. I dropped my pen, closed my eyes and immersed myself in the music, making sense of all that was in the lyrics. Then I asked myself, did I come all the way to study and forget and neglect everything around me. No.

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

Sea Fireflies

Cypridina hilgendorfii - bioluminescing ostracod crustacean native to the sea of Japan.

To get light, simply grind 7-10 dried C. hilgendorfii into a powder. Place the powder onto a watch glass. Add enough water from a wash bottle to moisten it. Observe in a darkened room. The light will glow a blue colour for a brief period, dim and disappear.




This is the glow we got from today's tutorial session. It generated ooohs and aaahss...

...today we learnt the transformation of chemical energy (luciferin) into light by the enzyme luciferase.

Full Circle

1980s: Exodus of Engineers

1990s: IT blew out

2000s: Life Science follow suit

I guess re-routing will be of immediate concern for me.

The future has never been so bleak.

Da Capo 2006: Pics

Fellow friends...

Section mates...

Da Capo 2006

8 songs
1.5 hours of performing time

That was what we have been practising for.

Repeat
Sustain

That was our agenda for nearly every band prac.

Friends
Families

This is why we practise so hard.

When was the last time I had a concert?
Ya.. it was back in the Singapore Conference Hall in J1.

But at least this performance was not bad in the sense that the concert hall was small, so the band had little problems filling up the place. There were glitches here and there; there were parts where I didn't come in, wrong fingering, mispitching and all that. But hey, what's a concert without cock-ups right? Ha..

And did I mention the pounding I felt before the solo part.. brings me back all the way back to the year 2001. SYF 2001.. Chua Chu Kang Sec Sch.. 1st band.. By Loch and Mountain. But the difference is, I didn't cock up SYF.

But I really enjoyed myself. There were very nice moments...

Thanks Yokes for the sweets.
Thanks Phoebe for the lollipop.
Thanks to the people who came for my concert.

(Takes a giant bow)

Da Capo 2006: Prelude

YAY!!!

CONCERT IS HERE!!!

TOO EXCITED!!!

Flip, flip... I think I flipped

Open book tests are so noisy.

Shouldn't there be a rule against loud flipping of notes?

How can I concentrate with all the flipping going on?

Rainbow...

immerse yourself...

forget yourself...

I dare you...

...and people say comics are not educational.