Day 11 8:56a.m
1... the air was freezing cold... 2... they're wrapped in their sleeping bags... 3... 4... all locked away in their dreams... 5... after a sleepless night... 6... their fatigue bodies carry them through the night... 7... 8... each have thier own story to share... 9... I'm never in sync with them... 10... they'll have good memories to keep... 11... their triumph far greather than mine... 12... all lay asleep.

7:34p.m
Night fall upon us once more. The weather has been cool the whole day with no hints of the sun at all. It was too cold that I had to wear admin inside. With the ocassional drizzle all afternoon, the cold got to my bone. Nothing much happened today as the battalion spend most of the day sleeping in the training sheds, wasting the day away. As usual I was bored but I was saved a few times by Rus's drama. He really made me laughed. Before I came here, I thought to myself to not think so much. This will be the last stretch for me. ATEC is next week and it'll the worst for me. Maybe I'm thinking too much right now. Going through the worst times now.
Why do I feel that I don't belong anymore?
Why do I ostracise them?
Why don't I want to clear everything up?
Suddenly these questions bother me. I don't wish to answer any of them. Let it disappear when I ORD. Just as I want to be invisible.