Day 8 8:36a.m
No agenda for me today. Woke up freezing again. Not used to the climate here. I'm in the bunk now while the rest are downstairs loading the BCS stores into the tonner. I wanted to go down to help them out but decided not tto. I seriously feel left out.
I just want to be part of something, part of all this.
My minds tearing apart,
my head feels giddy and light.
Can't you see I'm breaking inside,
from the day I stepped away from your side.
Now I'm distancing myself from some of them. Vin, Az, Chan, I just can't talk to them about all this. They have problems of their own. They wouldn't see why I'm fretting. To them it's good to have nothing to do, to be away from all the work.

9:49p.m
Today was a much busier day and we owe it to the Bn mission ex tomorrow. Spent nearly the whole afternoon settling the TES set for ATEC. Called home this afternoon and was happy to hear my mum's voice. I really miss my family. Now coming to day 9 and we're not even halfway through. So many things are gg on till I have a hard time masking myself. Some may have observed that my actions has changed. I had to laugh it off somehow. Who would've guessed that ppl whom I'm not close with could make me forget abt my troubles.