Day 10 12:54p.m
When you chose to ignore me.
My gestures rejected by ignorance.
My presence didn't get noticed;
I'm just a shade of grey in your ever colourful life.

Time is moving ever so slowly here. How long more? How long more? Can't ppl see tt I'm breaking down? And I feel so left out from all of this. I will hide myself, shut everyone out. I'm tired of keeping a happy face in front of them. I would happily trade places with any of the BCS medic. But does anyone know that? NO. All they see is I'm on the vehicle, not walking. I just couldn't tell anyone how I'm feeling because they're either resting or busy with stores. I think that ex crescendo is a perfect name for this. As the training toughens and ATEC is but a week away, I get pushed back into the background. I might as well be invisible. Even then no one will ask where I am. Let me just fade...

7:03p.m
Today my voice drowned deeper...
"we deployed and it rained..."
"the exit was just in front of a tombstaone"
my cry remained unheard...
"I heard the walk is going to be 8km..."
"we slept outfield but the night wasn't cold..."
in all their sentence, unity was what I heard...
"they ate pork yesterday..."
"Azri and lukman, Ong and me..."
in my sentences, I not we or us could be used...
"I was deployed just outside KMC..."
"I'm staying at CP..."
as I fade from them,
"tell them to gather at 1730..."
"we will be deploying in KMC..."
I wished I was invisible...