My playlist has undergonea major transformation yesterday. Since I downloaded limewire the day before, I have been downloading songs like Stick with you by Pussycat Dolls, Stronger by Sugarbabes, You weren't there by Lene Marlin and Here with me by Dido. This was when it struck me that these songs really reflected my feelings and how I see the world around me. The lyrics make me shed tears though not much. Full of meaning is how I describe the songs, some even explains the way I'm behaving.

Sometimes I feel so down and out
Like emotion that's been captured in a maze
I had my ups and downs
Trials and tribulations,
I overcome it day by day,
Feeling good and almost powerful
A new me, that's what i'm looking for

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts

She cut herself on a piece of paper
It didn't hurt, but she saw the blood
She could need that embrace, you weren't there

He had his birthday few days ago
He got some presents, a big party too
And there were congratulation calls
As the years before, not ever one from you

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

Do I even know what this feeling is? The feeling of being at the peak and at a trench at the same time? I feel happy and grateful but at the same time sad and disappointed. The feeling that when you tried so hard at certain things but the others are left neglected. I feel like a fireman trying to tame all the fires; to put out fully before continuing or to share the water with all so that it will be put out together. Do I even make sense? This see-saw of emotions have got to be balanced somehow.

Up and down
I'm going dizzy
Smile and frown
I couldn't tell, all is fuzzy