All in my head...

Amongst the confusion in my head... this was what I can see but soon it became clear.

confusionobscureangersadnesstemptationirritatedobviousminute
painperplextoilsufferdisorientatedIhurtgloomycheerlessspiritless
tornscaredfearfulinsecurefailuretroublemakerrebeltimidegoistic
selfishstupidlameavoidshunannoyancefuriousprovokedweakcheapen
difficultunimportantincompetentineffectivejustdiscouraged
uninvolvedrageintentionalscrewedupinflexibletruthdead
uncooperativeeffortlessagainstdullmiserablelivelessuninteresting
slackingdepresseddissapointmentdefeatedtiredenoughfreedom
letgomadnesstamedon'tstressfreefallrepeatunfairscapegoate
scapeanticipateignoranceambiencetrampledchokedincapable
hookeduninitiativeslackindifferentchangedmixedknowalone
defeatedfainttearspolluted

For 30 minutes, all I could think of was

I just don't know