Sixth Movement: Full speed

011005 9:45a.m
Happy Children's Day! Haha... too old for that already. October is in which leaves around 5 more days before we move to Jalan Aman Camp where we will go on an educational tour. Heard from Jiexiong that we are going to have a whole week off after all. WooHoo!
Ramadhan is also coming up... should be on the 5th of October if I am not wrong. It is already pouring and I am stuck in the medical centre. Going for my last 4D3N cover at MARS3 later. Hmm... should update my 'miss' list today.

011005 9:34p.m
Currently at MARS 3, in the middle of a quarry dumping site. There are quite a number of dogs around so it feels quite scary. Was so engrossed in reading Deception Point by Dan Brown that I procrastinated in writing this entry. The highlight of today... the 'Miss" list.
1. family - still tops
2. friends - all the hanging out
3. blogging - a lot to type
4. maplestory - hang on Prim2
5. food - any food will do
6. keyboard - hope I still remember at least 1 song
7. civilian - already forgotten how it feels to be one
8. crowds - being an introvert, its ironic that I miss being in a crowd
Will not be turning in soon so I will be writing about... blogs.

Blogs have been a great hit among individuals who craves having their own
domain on the web. Blogs are either private, which could be
password-protected,
or public, which could be accessed by virtually anyone
who has access to the
web. However, in the past 3 weeks, blogging has come
under fire as to its ethics
and censorship.
Blogging to some is like an
online diary where issues at heart of the
blogger is splashed all over the
blog. I could not deny that even my blog is an
expression of myself but
sensitive issues and personal matters are kept away.
Blogs are now no longer
safe as lurkers search through numerous blogs, reading
and maybe using it to
stir uneasiness throughout the community. No doubt
bloggers should exercise
sensitivity when writing about certain issues. Knowing
that your blog may be
open to web searches, the contents too can be used openly
by anyone who
chanced upon it.
In spite of blogs being defamed for providing a channel
for spewing
disputes, the possibility for blogs providing opportunities are
endless. It can
serve as a public forum for like-minded individuals to share
a common interest.
I can search blogs that that share my interest in games
or maybe mothers out
there can search for online recipes in another
blog.
Now, chatterboxes can be embedded in a blog which allows open
communication
between family, friends, and even guests and it can be
customised to suit the
overall lokk and feel of the blog.
Although blogs
may be a window to one's life on the web, sensitivity should
be exercised so
that it will not be a subject of scrutiny as various add-ons are
peppered
across the web which allows for faster and more efficient transfer of
information.

021005 8:13p.m
Finished reading Deception Point today. 1 book in 2 days... I must have been very bored. Haha... feeling excited already, a few more days left. Wonder how Chandra and Hann is doing right now. 2nd day into Ex Buaya, must be very taxing for them, both mentally and physically. Have an idea on what to do tomorrow... going to write about rejection, my biggest fear alongside loneliness. Tonight will be brainstorming... think I am going to turn in already.

031005 11:28am.m
Today's weather is very hot and its not even noon yet. Need to cool down first before beginning.
Looking through the small window,
all alone, in a tight, claustraphobic cell.
The light penetrating,
shed light all around me, and that was when I saw ...

***

A candle burning fast, wax dripping on the dark, wet floor;

surviving on this candle, in the labyrinthe of life.

The walls closes on me, and the candle stands short;

the time draws near, I risked being trapped.

I continued on, with hope to find;

a way out of this, a miracle would be fine.

Just then, as though my prayers were answered;

the walls disappear and ahead of me shines this bright pulsating light.

I darted towards it, as fast as I could;

but it seems that the light, distanced as I ran.

Don't give up, don't let up;

just trust your guts, follow it tight.

Sweat ran down my face, the tireness came;

I was exhausted, so I stopped and I stared.

The light began to dim, as though saying goodbye;

I've lead you far enough, the rest is up to you.

As miraculous as before, the walls appeared again;

I gaped is shock, what was happening?

The walls were spriked, and my candle was gone;

Now I'm worse off than when I started;

the spikes stings and I began to bleed...

OKOK that has to be one of the worst ever. It was difficult writing about both so I concentrated only on rejection. Cannot blame me since I was not in the mood. Maybe later I will write something else. Being in Brunei for nearly 2 weeks made me think about myself. Hmm... where is lunch anyway?

031005 4:54p.m

Lunch was good... I really mean it. Now raining and I am freezing. It has been raining everyday for the past few days. Talk about extreme weathers! Feeling bored right now. Have been sleeping until I cannot sleep anyways (does it sound right).

031005 6:08p.m

Nasi lemak for dinner, boy am I full. Ramadhan is just a few hours away. Better say my Niat (intention) for tomorrows fast. Heading back to camp tomorrow, looking forward to a cool, refreshing bath tomorrow. For the coming Ramadhan, I aim to achieve the following,

1. use little or no profanities

2. try not to gossip or badmouth people

3. try not to listen to gossips and negative influences

4. try not to look at pictures or read articles that may destroy my fast

5. be nice, polite, courteous, kind

6. try not to complain when hungry or thirsty

7. complete Ramadhan having fasted for 30 days

fasting is not just about abstaining from food and drink from sunrise to sunset. It is also about abstaining from negativities that may destroy one's moral values. This is also the month where syaitans (devils) are locked away so as not to disturb the blessed month. So it is up to the individual to curb one's desires so as not to break one's intention to fast. Having fasted for many Ramadhan's, I must say that the first few days are not easy. As the days pass, it will become easier until it becomes a lifestyle. I will strive to achieve my aim, bit by bit. Even after Ramadhan, I intend not to fall back on my old ways.

In Brunei, sunrise and sunset occurs earlier than in Singapore so relatively fasting here will be easier. However, only the first 2-3 days will be spent here fasting. Really looking forward to break fast with family and ocassionally with friends.