Fifth Movement: Uplifting

280905 6:55p.m
Going back to camp tomorrow that marks my first of 2 4D3N covers. Cannot wait to take a refreshing shower but most importantly come closer to the day we head back to Singapore. Could not be bothered to count how many days have been spent here. Tomorrow will also be the day A coy completes their Ex Nomad. Wonder how Chandra's doing right now. Saw Hann earlier today and he said that he feels like dying. If it had been me, I think I would just go with the flow until my body stops me. OKOK I understand that it is easier said than done so I will not dwell into this further. Will interview them about the Ex Nomad tomorrow. Thinking about topics to write about tomorrow...hmmm... just could not come up with a topic because I am thinking about other things. Things that I have let go off but ocassionally come back and really, really saddens me. Azri would know what I mean. Without fail everytime this kind of things come up to bother me, I will write a poem to let loose my feelings so that the positives will stay while the negatives will be penned down.

As winter came, colder each year;
blowing its chilling wind, down my every bone.
Food ran low, and I am all alone;
friends that I thought were, all gone.
At times when I am lost, alone by myself;
not once did they turn, not once...
My tears freezes solid, but my heart stayed;
I thought I was damned, but help came along.
I was saved from the cold, by a big warm hug;
that was just I needed, a hug... just once...

290905 3:42p.m
Wah! Still at Foxbat! The worst thing is that I do not know whether I am going back to camp today or not. Heard a bizzare story today. Had a casualty who suffered from a fever with temperaturre 38.6 C since 2 days ago. Today he came Foxbat, I took his parameters: temp 38.6 C, pulse 124, respiration 20. I know that that was not bizzare. I was told that he was 'disturbed' at the first night. He was 'disturbed' because he apparently slept along a ridgeline, crossing the open path. He then felt a weird feeling in him and as a result he developed fever. In addition, at the back of his neck are 3 small burnt marks that formed a triangular shape. Talk about eerie! Heard other stories from the perm staff here, but I shall not write it down. I do not want to speculate anything because I did not experience it for myself. 2nd time it rained today... and I smell bad. Desperately need to go back today.

300905 1:17p.m
Staying in the medical centre alone since the rest are out on cover. Came back late yesterday and reached camp around 7:30p.m. Todays weather is hot... thank goodness I have no cover today. Going to MARS (medical aid relay station) 3 tomorrow for my second 4D3N cover.
Taboo topic next:
Hashbi was supposedly possessed yesterday night and was later sent to the medical centre after he awakened. Felt quite scared yesterday as it was Thursday night. However, I had a comfortable rest on the bed with no disturbance. 9 more days left... could not wait.

300905 4:47p.m
Hot one minute and pouring the next. Predicting the weather here is like predicting your life in the Army. You think you know it but actually you have no idea. Enough nonsense already. Chandra read my previous entries and knew who I was talking about. It is that obvious huh? My mood was not lifted at all. Do not get me started man. Since writing is obvious then I should be more subtle by writing poems... even so... try guessing this... good luck.

Wasting away the fruits on the tree,
the roots run deep, it spreads unseen.
The warmth from the sun, the air so fresh,
richens the tree, so the fruits may bear.
The leaves provide shade, the trunk supports, not any single part left bare, unused.
With constant nourishment, the tree will thrive,
and support the numerous creatures that lives within it.
Age will soon catch up, the sun may refuse its warmth,
by then the habitants will what the tree is worth.