When it comes to this kind of taboo topics I don't dare to say anything that may offend anyone or be a jinx in anyway. My parents told me that he is preparing himself for his final stages. Even as I'm writing this down, my eyes are already welled with tears. I'm going to visit him soon with my family. The doctors say that there is nothing left to be done except give him medicines, medicines to numb the pain. But the pain is in all of our hearts, seeing him suffer.

When it comes to this kind of things, I really feel very weak. My mind becomes lost, everything lost its meaning.
I just couldn't smile, all I could do was frown.
I just couldn't think straight, all was distorted.

Please...help...me...

Oh God! Help me please! You are the only one I could turn to! Make me strong but
make him stronger!