Life: Once
I'm putting on a braver front than I once thought I could. When I was confronted yesterday, I knew what was coming my way. News were no longer alien to me. I had expected at least some of it.
What was I suppose to feel? Anger? Disappointment? Shock?
I don't know. All this while I'm thinking about my siblings... never mind me. I'm old enough to look after myself but who to look after them? Questions questions.
Life seems to be accelerating before my very eyes.
Looks like studies isn't my only concern as I have other priorities being squeezed into my life. Money, tuition, IPPT and others now take up more and more of my time till I barely have time for myself... doing things that I like.
Mental breakdown.
I'm actually surprised that I didn't suffer from a mental breakdown till now. All this while I've been anticipating one, getting ready to pick myself up when I fall. But thank God it hasn't happened.
Why?
Maybe because of work... taking up the bulk of my weekdays. Didn't think that work could be so fun.
Maybe because of friends... hanging out. Doing anything is fine with me... distract me, make me forget.
Maybe because of strength... since ORD, I've been more active. Laziness rarely shows itself.
Well, I don't want to think about all that depressing stuff.
Sometimes you have to be thick-skinned.
1 Comments:
maybi bcos you ARE stronger than b4.. dun anticipate for a mental breakdown .. you still have to help your ma, your bro and your sis... it's not just about you anymore... the people ard you are affected.. i think that's what separates 21-yr old grown ups from their younger counterparts... having to take all these into consideration..
u heard b4 the 10/90 principle? 10% of ur life is wat happens to you.. 90% is determined by what you intend to do.. you are experiencing part of your 10% now.. how that 90% turns out to be depends on how you choose to face it... Stay positive=)
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