Never receiving, forever giving

When life stares long enough,
look away from it.
Hoping in vain, [F]
Preventing pain.
Nothing gained.

Looking far, blurred with tears inside.
A drop escaped the prison in me,
a cold drop. [E]
Leaving a trail of hurt,
never to be recalled.
Forever...

Dried tears yearned to be cleaned,
to be wiped,
leaving no trail,
leaving no pain. [M]
But I refuse to.
Let it...
Never regarded it.

Making me curl up in the corner,
eyes welled once more.
Never once did. [E]
Never expected it.
Never.

Fearing fear.
Lost in translation,
never found, [A]
never expected.
Never.

Remembering the past:
of hatred deep,
of unreciprocatancy. [R]
Meaning distorted,
by cultured hatred